In December 2013 as the new year was approaching, I knew that I had to get my health back under control. I completely lost it for a good long while and I have no one to blame but yours truly. I decided to make some changes. This is not new. Weight management has always been a challenge for me.
I decided to keep a photo journal and struggled with myself as to whether or not I should blog about this. You know, really hold myself accountable because people were watching. Ooooooooooh SCARY!
Well I decided to do it anyway.
I started this New Beginnings Journal on January 5th so in order to bring you all up to speed, this post and the next one or two will be LONG! If you don’t want to read all of it, no worries. It is there for your referencing pleasure. After January 19th I will be post weekly journal entries. Cool? Ok, here goes!
Sunday, January 5, 2013
The truth is that I am fat. I am not only fat, but I’m obese. It’s amazing to me how I knew I was overweight and could stand to lose quite a few pounds, but my effort to lose the weight seemed to go nowhere. I felt it in my bones, joints and lungs, yet it wasn’t until I looked at my back, in one of my before photos, that I realized that I had gotten to THAT point. THAT point refers to the level of weight gain that I never thought I would get to. The point that I never wanted to be. The point where nothing fit well and buying larger clothes is the only option. The point where I was completely unhappy with how I physically moved through my life. Yup! That suck point has arrived.
The Holiday 20
You read that right. I gained 20 pounds over the holidays, including Thanksgiving, where I even organized a Turkey Trot with my family members to help curb the calories. It was cold as hell in New York City that day, too! I bake cookies and give them as gifts during the holidays and I’d like to tell you that that’s where all the calories came from, but that was not the case. I did have some cookies, but I didn’t go to town. There are many reasons why I gained that much weight — from indulging in Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner (days after the events – damn those leftovers!), to drinking lots of eggnog with rum, hot chocolate, rum cake and eating other people’s food at their house all in the name of celebration. Naturally with all this eating, had continued to exercise, I may have spared my body some of the burden. That didn’t happen.
The Weigh-In from Hell
On Sunday December 29, 2013 I weighed in at my all time high (to be disclosed later maybe). I had to now accept the fact that I reached my all time high in December 2013. Seriously?! I had thought I reached my all time high at age 28, but apparently I’m an overachiever in this department as well. Yeah.
At that moment I was like, “You know what? The new year is coming up (though losing weight is not my resolution because in all honesty, losing weight has been my New Year’s resolution since I was in high school and I’m still heavy – my heaviest, need I remind you) and you need to focus on changing your life.”
At a New Year’s Eve party I asked a friend what her resolution for 2014 was and she said, “to be a better person.” It was simple, but so all-encompassing. Just be better.
Enter in Shaun T’s Focus T25 Program
My decision to do this program came to me one night while up late. His infomercial came on and I alway like to watch him. He makes me laugh when he says, “Rest? You can rest when you go to bed.” I have lost weight on other Beach Body programs like Slim in 6 and Turbo Jam and I love those programs, but I have been doing them for years in addition to Walk Away the Pounds and the Firm which are not Beach Body programs but have always helped bring me back to exercise. That can’t be a bad thing. I needed something different.
Shaun’s program looked challenging and even better, the workouts were only twenty-five minutes. If twenty-five minutes a day doesn’t scream lifelong change appeal then I don’t know what does. The program wants you to give it your all in the twenty-five minutes that you are with Shaun. There are two phases Alpha and Beta. There is a Gamma phase but I haven’t even started to think about a phase three. I’ve watched all the workouts and similar to Shaun’s Insanity program, intense gym class comes to mind. I worry about my knees, my asthma and just being so miserable that I don’t want to continue, but I haven’t started yet and I know that practice makes better so I will be following the modifier. I already decided that (my girl Tanya!). No quitting allowed.
What also makes this program great is all the things they give you to help you succeed. The nutrition plan is great. NUTRITION….YES! I need a nutrition overhaul and have already committed to following the recipes listed to know how many calories I am taking in. Nutrition plans are not new to me. From Weight Watchers, to South Beach, Atkins to Medifast to name a few I have done quite a few of them and they have all given me success. They all work if you stick with them, but I want to get to the point where I am changing my lifestyle and not eating to get to that magic number. This is a new approach for me. The nutrition plan incorporates things that I am already eating or have in my house, so I am on the right track. I just need to straight up avoid some s#!% for a while and reduce my portions, tremendously and permanently for long-term success.
Focus T25 is a 10-week program which, for me, provides more of a solid foundation and is more habit-forming than a four or six-week program. I am in this for the long haul and have sought out support from friends and family who are gun ho about new year weight loss goals. So that will help.
I want the next part of my life starting from here on out to be better than the last part of my life and I want to do it with the healthiest and fittest me possible.
Why January 6 start?
Well, because I had more eating, drinking and partying to do. I wish I could tell you something profound and deep, but there is no sense starting something if your mind is not into it and your focus is not there. Once I put my mind to something, I’m locked in. My mind was not locked in on January 1st, 2nd, 3rd or 4th. Today I lightened up, but it was only because I ran out of time. I kid you not. So sad, but yes, it is finally time to put the f&@%ing fork down. January 6, 2014 it is! Yay!!
What I Wish to Accomplish During this Weight Loss Journey
I don’t have any lofty goals here, but my short-term goals are to 1) Get through the full 10-week program 2) Stick to the nutrition plan, and 3) Be significantly lighter than I am now (this does not mean unhealthy weight loss, this means healthy pound shedding and lean muscle gain.
Here is where I should totally disclose my weight and measurements. I’m not there yet. I cringe a the thought of sharing this with anyone other than myself, but I do promise to share some measurement of before, during and after with you along this journey.
Long term goals all center around creating a lifestyle that supports maintenance without going crazy or feeling like I am somehow missing out on something if I have to say no to my drinking buddies or dinner with friends and even family events. For now though, I am truly just taking it one freaking day at a time.
Let’s get started!